Stupid Decision #49656435

So I switched to Blogger a while back to try and save a few bucks on my blog.

But it's just not the same for me. I loved my old Typepad blog. It was pretty. It was funny. At least I thought it was funny. I could edit it so easily. I could see who visited. So many positive things down the drain in an attempt to save $8.95 a month.

Whatever. I can tottaly afford $8.95 a month.

So...I've righted my stupid decision and I've switched back.

Here's the link to my new blog.
www.scrapfreak.typepad.com

It's not all fancy and pretty yet but it will be.

I feel so much better. :)

Letting Go

Spent some time reading Ali Edward's Life Artist book this weekend. I know I probably spend a little too much time talking about Ali but her words seriously speak to me. I feel totally overwhelmed sometimes with the amount of things I want to do and the feeling that everything has to be perfect. And Ali's words constantly remind me to just let go and create. It's been a long time since I just sat down and told a story in my pages. In fact, it's been a long time since I really created anything at all! I'm trying really hard to incorporate creativity into my daily life...in the way I look at things, in the way I process what's around me. I'm going to keep soaking up her words and see where that takes me. Some good stuff there.

Made some big decisions today too. And I mean BIG. Some truly life-changing decisions. Nothing I can share right now but in the coming months and by this time next year, things will be a lot different. Better. Exciting. A new beginning of sorts.

Doing okay on the diet thing until today...I'm down a whopping -1.5 pounds. But it's still down so it's all good.

Oh...and I got a new laptop. Woo hoo! With a cool web cam that I'm sure I'll be way too embarassed to ever use.

Happy Monday!

Okay, today is the day. Again.

Here I am once again saying today is the day to make some changes. I say this all the time but unfortunately I never get very far. I don't know if I need more will power, some type of medication, hypnosis or what, but I really need to just do it. I desperately need to lose weight. I say this almost every day. In fact, I start off every day feeling great, motivated and ready to go. But I've also discovered that I'm far more optimistic in the morning. By the time evening comes, I'm tired, annoyed, and I just want to go home and eat something to make me feel better.

There's probably something that needs to be addressed there as well but I'll save that for another day. What I know TODAY is that I'm at my highest weight ever. And I'm wasting so many opportunities because I'm fat. And maybe they're not big opportunities...maybe it's just a picture that I don't want to be in...but they're still there. All screaming that I can't do that because I'm fat. I won't dress up on Halloween because I'm fat. I won't go shopping because I'm fat. I won't see old friends because I'm fat. Seriously. And it has to change. Instead of living every day thinking that one of these days I'll lose some weight, I want to look back at these years as my fat years and just know they're over.

So that brings me to here. It's midday. I'm still feeling optimistic. So I did it. I took the plunge and joined Weight Watchers Online. I've done WW before with some success. It's an easy process for me to just know and count points. The trick is going to be actually DOING it. I figured joining WW and paying out a chunk of money might help in the battle. Any help I can get at this point is a good thing. Short of someone tying my hands behind my back and force feeding me healthy foods, that's all I got. And I'm so afraid that come this evening, I'm going to be frustrated, hungry, and will give in only to have to start over again tomorrow. In fact, even as I type this I'm wondering if I should go check out the vending machine first. Or maybe postpone it until Monday. Because everything is better when you start on a Monday. But alas, I won't. I'm committed. I may not be the happiest person for the next few days or weeks or even months, but at least I'll be thin. And afterall, who doesn't want to be thin and miserable?

The Skull Fairy

I had about 3 seconds to take these photos before Abigail dashed back in the house so as not to be seen my any neighbors or passing cars. But she can parade around in this all night in front of her friends? I don't get it. But she did look cute. Probably a little cute actually. Next year her costume is going to have sleeves...and baggy pants. LOL

Mood Swing :)

Okay, I found something to make me happy. :)

While going through my list of daily blogs trying to find something to bring me back to reality, Ali Edwards had a great post about green scrapbooking and about Blog Action Day. I didn't know anything about Blog Action Day but now that I do, I'm excited! I'm all about the green movement so I'll get out of my funk and do something productive.

While green scrapbooking is a scary thought, you really should take a moment to read Ali's comments on the subject. She makes some excellent suggestions on some areas where we really could make a difference. I will be starting today with a much more conscience mindset of recycling my scraps and packaging and looking for those multiple uses and/or reused items to fit in my scrap life.

There's so much we can do but it sometimes seems overwhelming. So just start slow. Do just one thing each day. Or even do just one thing TODAY. Find one thing and make it a habit, then find another, etc. I'm going to go buy another trashcan today for my scraproom and start the process. What will you do?

Can I start over?

Do you ever have those days where you really think it would've been best if you just stayed in bed? That's my day so far. And a warning to all of you that might encounter me at some point today. Seriously, I'm just in a bad mood. Not a hacked off that the world kind of mood...just not a happy mood. I woke up feeling okay and then something really minor happened that took all the joy out of the moment. Not to mention it was pouring down raining and it took me an hour and a half to get to work today. And really, normally, I don't let the little things like that take hold but today it just has and I can't let it go. I've tried to do some things to keep my mind otherwise occupied...I've played Scrabble, I've read my photography magazine, I've been blog reading, and I've been working...but nothing is making it better. I'm still just not feeling it. I really just want to get in bed, curl up under the covers, and wake up tomorrow to a whole new day.

I'm so weird.

There are so many things around my house that need done and I tell myself all the time that I'll get around to them eventually. Some get done, some don't. Today while cleaning my house, I ran across quite a few "never get done projects" that just cracked me up. Check out all these picture frames around my house. Only one of these actually has a REAL photo in it...the rest are just how I bought them...several even have the price on them!

Seriously...think they need some REAL pictures? LOL

Maybe I should move this "get around to project" higher on the list.

*** Revised to add since some of you asked....the 3rd photo, the picture on the left with the 3 girls...that's the real one. That's Abigail and her two cousins. And yes, the dog is sideways. Makes it even a little more odd, doesn't it. :)

Books.

I love books. But oddly, I'm not really a reader. I love the idea of reading, I really LOVE bookstores, I love the smell of books, I love to buy books and I usually love it when I actually finish a good book. But it takes me forever to get through a book. It just seems like after work, homework, dinner, family time, computer time, tv time, housework, laundry, bill paying, etc. that there's just no time left to read. I usually always have a book on my bedside table but I fall asleep reading them more times than not. Books are expensive and luckily they've never been that convenient to me to run to the store. Until now. And this might get me in trouble. They just opened up a new Barnes & Noble near me and I'm afraid it might just be a little too easy for me to go pick up yet another book that I'm not going to finish. Like tonight. It was all too convenient to go pick up a book that someone recommended to me today. And while I'm there, I might as well search the bargain tables too. So one week of them being open and $40 later, I have 3 more books to add to my night stand. Lord, give me strength.

Where did my day go?

Seriously. I woke up reasonably early, got rid of the husband and kid, and have been by myself all day. I haven't cleaned, I haven't done laundry, I haven't done anything housework related at all. I reserved the entire day to be creative. And I've been doing just that. But oddly, I haven't gotten anything done! I made 2 cards and worked on a project for the upcoming Freakfest. And that's all I have to show for my day. How does that happen? I really think someone stole a few hours.

Oh well...maybe I can do some more tomorrow...in between cleaning and laundry.

In the meantime, here's a sneak peak at one of the projects for Freakfest. So fun and easy...I think everyone's going to love it.

Everyone should know their stripper name.

Rebecca posted a cute blog challenge on Scrapfreak so here goes:

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
daiquiri tribute
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
lemon custard peanut butter
3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
mcof
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
black dog
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
lynn dallas
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
monmo
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink put "The")
khaki sprite
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
lew wallace
9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne, favorite candy)
irrisistible cherry sour
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother's & father's middle names )
ann something (don't know my father so I guess I'll just be ann

If you're reading this, you need to do it. :)